Neighbours

I’m so happy, I’m so happy that everything seems to be getting back to normal again in my life, well better than normal because Declan and I kissed and Dad is back home from prison.

Everything before this week has been horrible. Nicola arriving, Riley leaving, and the whole experience with Chris Knight. It's all been so difficult to deal with. I was so stupid for thinking Chris liked me and putting myself in that situation. I still feel a lot of shame about it all, it was really hard to have everything that happened between Chris and I out in the open, to have to tell my parents all about it. Then having to do what Dad wanted with the police. I think Dad thought I was so young and stupid that I wouldn’t be able to handle talking to them.  It was stupid to allow Dad to lie for me like that.

Declan has been so amazing. I knew I could trust him when he kept what happened between Chris and I a secret.  I felt so betrayed when Riley just left like he did at a time when I really needed him, he didn't even say goodbye, not a word! We were best friends, it was always us against everyone else.  I blame Nicola for what happened though, more than I blame Riley. She was the reason he ran away!  I wish she'd go away and leave my family alone. 

Atleast I've had Declan.  He's so strong, and cute and handsome, and he's such a wonderful person too.   

I bought all of Declan’s tickets for the kissing booth charity. He didn’t know it was me and I wasn’t sure if I should admit it to him at first, all I knew was I didn’t want anyone else to kiss him. Never!  I had to kill his curiosity and tell him I had bought all his tickets. He was checking out every single girl who walked in!  He can be stupid sometimes! I was really worried he'd be disappointed when he found out it was me, but he just kissed me.

My lips are still tingling, we must have kissed for about half an hour, in front of everyone, even Dad!  It was so wonderful and so passionate. We could have set a world record!  Maybe that’s what we should do next, organise a kissing booth competition to beat the world record!  Dec and I would win! 

I wonder if he feels the same way about me? Maybe he doesn’t want a girlfriend at the moment and was just having fun with the kissing thing tonight.  I don’t know. My stomach feels like it’s doing somersaults. Should I tell him I love him? Maybe I should wait for him to make the next move. I’m not sure I’ll be able to sleep tonight. I’m so excited, but so nervous at the same time. Is this what love feels like?

Oh, and I think Rachel and Ty like each other, he’s always calling her his “fake” girlfriend. Rachel and I were being silly and talking about boys we would definitely kiss and I was going to get to Ty, but we were interrupted. I think that’s why I said I’d kiss Zeke, you know, to tell her my secret and then she’d tell me hers.  I had to say something obscure to shock her in to her confession. But the moment got away from me when the boys came up.

Rachel did stop Ty from going in the kissing booth charity though and I thought her idea was brilliant.  Instead of buying all of Ty’s tickets she came up with some story in front of Donna about him having a cold sore, because Donna had bought all his tickets. So Ringo took Ty’s spot. In the end it didn’t look like Donna minded too much. Her and Ringo definitely gave Dec and I a run for our money. But not quite!!!

I can’t wait to see Dec tomorrow. 

Goodnight.

Love Bridget x